OK so I know no ones reading my blogs its not like I have posted in forever but I am gonna start posting more... My daughter Gloria is 4 and is as beautiful as can be she is a real handful but tries to be good ... And Lydia is 2.5 and is cute as a button she looks so much like her daddy and is a straight up diva and I cant stop it and I am not sure if I want to... I found out that when I was pregnant with Lydia she would be my last child I cannot have anymore so I wont have my little biy... But I do have Bryce and thats ok... I love my family all of us but I think I am losing me and that is not ok... I went to my friend Angelas for a few days with the girls and I missed Rob so bad that would never have happened before but after being married for soon to be 4 years I have grown accustomed to sleeping next to him now if I dont have hime there I cant sleep at all... Maybe I am just flipping out for nothing I mean I am supposed to want him next to me its natural right???? 

Well I am living in income based housing cause its a small town and Rob can only find part time work and only works 3 days a wekk well ok now its been 4 and half goes to child support which agrivates me cause we cant live on that and she can afford fast food 3 meals a day for him ( then wonders why he is over weight ) and I can only get kids a happy meal 2 times a year if that grrrrrr. I mean I believe we should help but I have to go now to the clearence racks to get my 2 clothes for school next year and she complains that we should have to help buy him clothes for school when we have to get our kids things second hand. I havnt had a winter coat in 3 years because my kids and husband need stuff. Think about this me and my hubby had to save up when her needed a new belt and it only cost $10. Gloria needed new shoes she grew out of the ones she had and got blisters.

I dont wanna complain cause I love my life and love my family sometimes I just get agrivated and dont know how I am suposed to live like this... Why does everyone seem to get what they need and I have to freeze in the winter time and wear clothing with holes all in it??? how can a mother with no imcome afford name brand clothes and be able to get her hair and nails done and so on and here I am trying to make a life for me and my little family and I look like I went into a dumpster for alll mu clothes????? I just dont understand it and never will !!!!!!!